HERPES

Talk About Herpes | Mental Pain

Experience…
I subject myself to a lot of stress because of my condition. I am always paranoid about how I will be judged if I reveal my health status too early or too late. I have struggled with the "right time" to let someone know that I have the virus, especially when I first meet the person I`m dating. Should I say, "Hi my name is Jane and I have herpes?" Should I give them the opportunity to run for the hills before they get to know me? I`ve had the virus for 10 years and I feel that it has ruined my life. Most if that has been my fault because I`ve never coped with it in a healthy way. I have not been forthright with my partners and I hate myself for that. I have made the decision to be sexually active for them and it makes me feel despicable. I feel like I deserve every bad experience that I`ve encountered with this virus and the psychological and mental toll it`s had on my life. The pain of herpes itself pales in comparison to the emotional pain and hopelessness I have experienced. [46688]

Gender: F
Age: 33
Married: N

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